He knew the better Road

How many times!   I took my computer pulled up a world map and charted a course.  I wanted to be here, put on this concert, attend school there, transfer here, and then get a job with them.  I took that map printed it out stuck it in my pocket and packed up what little i owned into my bag and hammered a sign on the door saying, "Found my Way, Not coming Back."

My hope and my map last about a week and then they're both outdated.  I end up on a park bench somewhere with nothing but a bag of heavy past experiences, all of which seem worthless at the moment!

Then when dumbfounded, without even the capacity the ask the right question the Savior takes a seat at my side.  He has found that which was lost, rather to Him it was never lost, but now it's ready to listen!  There is something about too good of a time and too hard of a time that leave us senseless and inattentive to the Savior.  Either one will wind us up on a park bench somewhere.

Then with nothing but a bag, He has to remind us and tell us the proper questions.  Just like the Apostles after hearing of the troubles around the 2nd coming.  We like them are left in life with a glimpse of what is to come and yet know we understand none of it, we are left without word nor knowing where to turn next.  Our sure map has failed and we're afraid to make a new one.  It's then the Savior comes in and reminds us Who then is a faithful and wise servant, whom his lord hath made ruler over his household, to give them meat in due season?  


Once we see what needs answering He answers the question!

I have made such a map and i have followed such a course and indeed it left me on a bench with all that i have worked to obtain stuffed in a worthless bag; me feeling as if the contents thereof were completely worthless.  My map was in pieces! I had prayed--i'm not perfect, i sin--yet i felt like it was right and not wrong.  How could it then turn out this way.  The stick i had devised to measure my progress and left me beaten and utterly alone!

Then in the darkness the very day of my distress, He was found on my bench!  Feeling and words came into my mind as i knelt in prayer.  I received an email concerning a different opportunity that very night and a feeling this one is right!  As i looked back i realized God's inspiration in writing my application letter, it was perfect.  That very night i was also offered an interview for this new alternative.  Later that week i arrived for that interview.  I went up in a glorious, majestic building overlook a beautiful court yard with water fountains and huge bay windows. There as i sat waiting for my interview, unsolicited, the spirit came strong and peaceful, with three words--this is right!  Upon entering the interview i was complemented on my application letter and asked a question that i new would come...for i had felt that would be it.  I knew how to answer with an experience the Lord had given me.

~ On Sunday i met an amazing young women, my roommate had just invited her over.  I knew nothing about her.  Then it came to my attention that she had seen The Tempest this last week in Salt Lake--I was able to have an amazing deep conversation with her because of my experience with Shakespeare.  It was amazing and possible because of the universal language provided by Shakespeare. ~

That is why i love Shakespeare and literature! It creates a bridge in which can span vast chasm and link people together in a universal language and experience.  It allows us to understand one another and to more fully understand ourselves.

I shared this God given experience and the effect was perfect for them and for me!  I was told that i was accepted into the program!  I then went back down and had another euphoric event!

Later the Lord confirmed these feelings as He always dose with a beautiful lesson in my New Testament class where we talked about this... How the Lord will help us even when we don't know what to ask and bless us even when we think we know better.  He knows the higher road and the better way!  He knew that this opportunity would be better.  Don't close any doors.  It can get better!