Friends? Alone?

Is it really possible for people to desire to be alone? Or is it more to be away from someone? Or is it that when you are told in an explaination that they just wanted to be alone, they are just trying to justify their own malicious actions, by saying it was an inocent desire versus the abhorrent deed they actually did. When someone truly desires to be alone they don't burn and damn everyone on their way there! How insightful is the Savior's actions when he desired to be alone after learning that His beloved friend John had been murdered. He shaught a far off place, time to speak with His Father, and maybe more; but a crowd pressed Him. He as the Savior could have walked away, anyone could have walked away, but He didn't He saw their need for Him and had commpasion on them.

These are the types of friends i want and maybe i've been looking in the wrong place for them. I'm the type of person that really dosnt get "tired" of being with or around people, I love to be around them and share experiences and to be a shoulder to lean on in times of need, I'm always constant in these regards I never change, but I think I expect this of others as well. Or at least the notion of desire and attempt, or gratitude. But these are often missed and not found. I hope I never fall into the category of hypocrite in this regard for I know what it feels like to be on the losing side.

There are many times in my life that constant things seem to get in the way of new things.  For example i visit family on Sundays at 5 and leave my roommates.  Almost every time i go my roommates have some grand party and end up home after my dinner alone.  I think to myself is this 5oClock thing working.  So i don't go one week and i get shafted!  Then i realize why i love my cousins so much--they are constant, they love me for who i am and constantly share how much they love me and are glad that i come!  Dose anyone know how nice it is to feel needed and loved, desired and wanted!? They never changes they are always there and always will be, they are the people i need to show my last measure of devotion and my first for that matter.

Be constant, be true, be a true friend and even when ones life is horrible take time on your way to solitude to comfort those compel you along the way. Then when it's time for you to be comforted the greater blessing will be yours. There will also be those there to pick you up when you fall for they will be the ones you have helped when they were down. And if at all else the Savior will see and reward thee openly and will pick you up personally when your down. For Blessed are the Merciful for they shall obtain mercy.



So back to the whole, looking in the wrong place, i know that we are never alone because the Savior paid such a heavy price so completely alone.  I know that when we feel utterly alone it's because we have forgotten to listen to His voice and that as we pray we are granted peace, our winds and storm cease.

Like the blind healed with clay, a day that was ruff became a day that was just as great!  I was granted a new view of my world, a view in which included the power of the Savior and His loving kindness and grace.